Surviving without

I keep expecting her to call. I know what that means.  I have not yet come to terms with my best friend's death.  I don't know that I ever will.  It hasn't "hit me" yet.  I keep hearing that it gets better over time.  I don't think so.  Not this time. I loved her more than … Continue reading Surviving without

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Except for the psychotherapy…

...you could be living my life story. I have been a complete failure at dating and relationships as well. I've also heard the "You'd make a great girlfriend/wife/mother/fill-in-the-blank..." line thousands of times from friends and family. Usually, it came just before they tried to sell me a bill of goods on some single guy whose … Continue reading Except for the psychotherapy…

Two more days…

This is the fourth day since CeCe died.  I waver between anger, sadness, numbness. My life has centered around her, I realize, for a very long time.  Not a day went by that I did not think about her, wonder where she was or what she was doing, and why she hadn't returned my call. … Continue reading Two more days…

Reviewing Resolutions

I wrote a post about five years ago, in which I discussed my attitude toward New Year's Resolutions.  My attitude has evolved a bit since then, but for the most part it is still pretty simple: New Year's resolutions are the lies we tell ourselves to make us feel better about the lies we told … Continue reading Reviewing Resolutions

She has such a pretty face…

I have been asked to take before and after pictures of my progress since the surgery.  Before pictures are out of the question.  During and after photos will come as promised.  Honestly, I have so many pictures of myself before November 29, 2010, that it should be very apparent that drastic change is in the … Continue reading She has such a pretty face…

I’M MELTING!!! (or, I will be)

Weight: 254.2 BMI: 40.8% Bone Density: 6.5 H20: 43.2%  Ok, so this is my last day as a "fat girl".  I have been overweight since I was a teenager (puberty hit me like a ton of bricks).  Not that being fat meant being worthless or unattractive.  In fact, I am told I am very pretty, … Continue reading I’M MELTING!!! (or, I will be)

Police brutality?

I would be much more sympathetic with the officer had he not stepped back and taken a good look at the child before he punched her.All this over a jaywalking ticket?  Something is very wrong here.  Several people felt it necessary to film this incident.  That alone tells me there is more to this story … Continue reading Police brutality?