I keep expecting her to call. I know what that means. I have not yet come to terms with my best friend's death. I don't know that I ever will. It hasn't "hit me" yet. I keep hearing that it gets better over time. I don't think so. Not this time. I loved her more than … Continue reading Surviving without
...you could be living my life story. I have been a complete failure at dating and relationships as well. I've also heard the "You'd make a great girlfriend/wife/mother/fill-in-the-blank..." line thousands of times from friends and family. Usually, it came just before they tried to sell me a bill of goods on some single guy whose … Continue reading Except for the psychotherapy…
This is the fourth day since CeCe died. I waver between anger, sadness, numbness. My life has centered around her, I realize, for a very long time. Not a day went by that I did not think about her, wonder where she was or what she was doing, and why she hadn't returned my call. … Continue reading Two more days…
C died Friday. Two days ago. This has been the longest two days of my life. I was with her when she died. I was holding her hand, talking to her. I had asked her to hold my hand, and I really do think she tried. Her fingers curled around mine at any rate, but that … Continue reading CLC
When I was in high school, my mother came up with a new phrase. Basically, it is shorthand for "none of your business", and Shirley Faye used it frequently when we asked too many questions. "Nunya" has been clanging around in my head tonight. It has to do with something someone said about a comment … Continue reading Nunya
I wrote a post about five years ago, in which I discussed my attitude toward New Year's Resolutions. My attitude has evolved a bit since then, but for the most part it is still pretty simple: New Year's resolutions are the lies we tell ourselves to make us feel better about the lies we told … Continue reading Reviewing Resolutions
I have been asked to take before and after pictures of my progress since the surgery. Before pictures are out of the question. During and after photos will come as promised. Honestly, I have so many pictures of myself before November 29, 2010, that it should be very apparent that drastic change is in the … Continue reading She has such a pretty face…
December 6, 2010 Ok, so as of today, I am one week post-surgery. Whew!! I'm glad that's over!! Time to move on... I weighed myself this evening, so far I have lost 19 pounds. I had been telling everyone that that was since last Monday, but it seems I was a little too eager on … Continue reading Hello, world!!
Weight: 254.2 BMI: 40.8% Bone Density: 6.5 H20: 43.2% Ok, so this is my last day as a "fat girl". I have been overweight since I was a teenager (puberty hit me like a ton of bricks). Not that being fat meant being worthless or unattractive. In fact, I am told I am very pretty, … Continue reading I’M MELTING!!! (or, I will be)
I would be much more sympathetic with the officer had he not stepped back and taken a good look at the child before he punched her.All this over a jaywalking ticket? Something is very wrong here. Several people felt it necessary to film this incident. That alone tells me there is more to this story … Continue reading Police brutality?